I had a dream-Natalie Wood in Gypsy

Please explain this one
I'm in some sort of carnival...off to the side
and this guy I kind of recognize comes up really close and he has like an extra, subtle set of blue eyes at the temple(i'm still trying to figure THAT one out-to myself-in the dream state) when he kisses me major and I can feel his heart pounding
(so real too real)
and he says real low
you don't remember me, do you?
and I say give me your card
him:nah
the frustration and the reality of it woke me right the heck up
at flippin' 330 ayem
Dream book sez all good all new fab shit headed at'cha
I'm all twitta-pated
thinking
sexfrustrationmissedconnectionsaaahhhh!

"...now these eight legged Casanovas...what'd I say..?"--Jared Harris in Lush

oh Casanova
me and Romeo


ain't never been friends

I gotta question
excuse me but why-hy am I dying of atrophy
here in the northland
I'm thinking my late great dad and both
both! of my grandfathers are keeping me from
possible
certain dis-
aster
the men
man
whaddevah
always came to me
now it's like miffed- and-
(sotto voce) d-d-divorced is embroidered across my
favorite hanro T

I was always so certain that if I just kept going and going
expecting the worst and secretly hoping
hoping
hoping for the
best
it'll all turn out
just jake

fab
everything is wonderful
now

always had a mondo job
or made it into one
worked really hard
like a guy--
I never thought much
about it

always managed to squeeze the creativity outta da career
luck ran out in 95
it has returned occasionally--never for long
ever since
so I act like it's normal or something
it ain't

Pesci: Is it me, Bobby, is it me?
DeNiro: Yeah, Joey, it's you.

the babies moved away

I am sooo sad and I just want to be alone
i went to brunch w/ mom cos she's all bummed out
and then had to stop at their empty house i was all choked up their rooms smell like them and all the happy times
i could escape there
i never should've come here I should've kept my 39k job in chi gotten a place and kept the secret affair w/ Mccoy on then i coulda seen the boys and still have my base instead of spending down all my cash and existing at my mom's and gaining all sortsa weight oh and making 200 a wk and spending 200 a month on fing parking. aaah i hate it here
i have zero friends and i never see my sibs it sux
i should move back

take care of Catherine...a C/W song

McCoy to me: what i want from you is passion(is he psychic!)
I'm sorry
Iwas a hypocritical --i say one thing and do another--cos i'm scared
i have feelings for you i want to see you come for a weekend
that I didn't take you to that wedding
me: I didn't care
Mc: i know it hurt your feelings...we coulda had fun together
yeah well... yeah
you dread it when my name comes up on your cell
why do I keep calling you?
because I think about you alot
(all the stuff i so need to hear now)
iasked if he lost someone before he was in the train accident--yes (as Di saw in the cards--she also saw that he wanted me to come to Chi cos he loved me...and he blew that)
what doyou think of when you think of me he asked romance said i
all the things that were yanked away from me
talk dinners out romance
a private affair-- discreet
jesus god he's27--lost use of his left arm hes drunk SMOKES for sobbing out loud lives in Chi
dui can't drive
so i just felt safe being clandestine w/ him
he grabbed me in public and did it so subtly I secretly dug it
yeah he lied and hurt my feels
he also made me feel desirable again
I swore after Terry broke my heart
next time it would be on my terms