...it was a run-by fruit-ing--Mrs. Doubtfire

Once and again
I have carefully managed to continue my long and winding career in windowdressing to another lateral level lucky lucky me. Mad as hell about it. I like being mad pist raging at the crazy fruitcakes that I report to. They do not communicate, waste my time and talent,and I pack up my things and move on to something even more frustrating.

This time well this time will be so different.
I vow to flip the script and use jujitsu to keep the latest-- a groupie that wears no makeup hails from Duluth no ed. no class thankfully moving on to LA in Jan.

My challenge keep this twat off my back while being like Switzerland @ the shop. ie no sniping behind her bipolar back.

fuuuuuhhh!

...those most deserving of love are seldom made happy by it- Mildred Natwick in Dangerous Liasons

Right
right
right
I screened the above movie for a refresher course on how to
get to
the boys w/o
getting my fingers
burned 2 a crisp

Scads o swell material for a passionate lady w/ no vows to give up...

All I want is the Aries motto
Fuck art let's dance

oh yeah and my real
true one

all 4 love

So I am up 2 my nips in career fam and just being a pallie
to the circle the trusted ones of which there R soooo few

In my down time I want a handsome face up my petticoat
and
I am so sorry
that I do
not

Oh it's sad to belong

Still still still in
se
cure
I am so scared that 24 is gone
been slipping too many secrets has he
so NOT co-D am I
whaddidIthinkwasgonnahappen?
he said
I
love you
and no no no
contact what? a fucking--non fucking--ahem--ever
ONE week later
I want contact
uh yeah
I said I was sad

connect the dots that's the coffee
give it a whiff
where the fuck is my
guy harem-ette
gone dunzo
never existed

When they were just three words to me:'A million dollars.'-Sammy Davis JR.

I am paraphrasing here:

I was in my Jag, headed down Little Santa Monica when I saw
her...

SD JR. re: actress May Britt circa 1959 in LA

All my life--ever since I read that line in his bio as a girl-- I have wanted someone to stop in his trax
feel that way
snap

4
moi

"Ol' Lukey...he was a world shaker"-George Kennedy in Cool Hand Luke

Welcome to my fabulous inner landscape
a small circus of my own
design
In this ring we have just what I always wanted
a young man who calls stays in the game shows up and takes me on adventures
apparently not interested in tossing salad w/me
stds? multiple postpunk gfs? screwing for his rent?!
U decide
I already
have...

and in the center ring is your designer togged out mistress o ceremonies
moi

behind the big top are assorted email guys makeout secrets and occaisional drunk dial-ers

Not a prayer not a Chinese chance in hell of my own true hearts desire in this parade

how fun to watch the elephant march pass
by

"Are you having fun out there Jarrett?" the swim coach to Tim Hutton in Ordinary People

I just long for a home and the solid ground I know I can build it upon
there among the comfort and the fresh flowers
lives true, true
love baby

I think if I can hang on and do and be
the treasure will fall into my hands
and I will at last know what to do with it

I am wasting my talent and energy on the hope against hope that
the one
will understand and stand up like a man
design create
... catch my ass before it ever hits the ground
every
day

How can I discover this while
a man twigs the fact that I want it
all
refuses to accept me
and actually thinks I find rudeness charming hmmmmm?

This one goes out to the one I (could) love

Yeah yeah yeah
I gripped the handle
I dialed the digits
2nd time @ bat
got the intern gf model actress whaddevah @ his office
and
I did
not get through
left a message
right right
zero response
big surprise huge

Let it go
go
go

loves me

does he
i knew it
i knew it
i knew it

call me when you r sober
anotonio zappa, edward