"Are you having fun out there Jarrett?" the swim coach to Tim Hutton in Ordinary People

I just long for a home and the solid ground I know I can build it upon
there among the comfort and the fresh flowers
lives true, true
love baby

I think if I can hang on and do and be
the treasure will fall into my hands
and I will at last know what to do with it

I am wasting my talent and energy on the hope against hope that
the one
will understand and stand up like a man
design create
... catch my ass before it ever hits the ground
every
day

How can I discover this while
a man twigs the fact that I want it
all
refuses to accept me
and actually thinks I find rudeness charming hmmmmm?